It was the set of information that leads him to a certain mental limit and didn’t know whether to break it or not. Probably the creative process is a kind of psychosis per se. He could feel how he reached a top, which he could choose to break easily. And it could be defined as the confrontation with the unconscious. It is very difficult to describe the thought and feeling that produces, that mental action of accepting that something is about to explode or come out, and you just have to let go.
He was able to identify how in his head, he heard as if someone was opening a “gift package” which had abundant cellophane plastic wrap, which makes a lot of noise when you open it. It lasted a few seconds until “the box” was finally opened, and the sounds of a giant balloon, which began to inflate inside, breaking everything due to the large volume it was acquiring. It was a kind of introduction of a great amount of information/ether, in which he could hear crystals or glass breaking as this balloon inflated and devastated everything in its path. This ended with the explosion of the balloon and the sound that it entails.
A black butterfly that was flying nearby, rested on his arm. Butterflies are said to help and carry part of your energy, for you to initiate a process of personal transmutation. Then he felt that he was “ready”, and heard within himself a person that laughed, affirming with a “Yes” and a small sarcastic laugh. He felt that this moment had to pass a long time ago, accepting that this reality was perhaps a dream, that we are a by-product of something bigger and more elaborated; having an acceptance to that new information, which had been escaping all the time.
This wave of information coming from the unconscious needed to be born. Attempting on many occasions and for so many years, to destroy his psyche, dividing him into two people. The Trickster brought together and recreated the original experience, which became the ‘Intro’ of the ‘Rite of Passage’ album.